Ok. So we didn't know how to share this but we knew that we wanted people to know. So I decided to write a blog post about it. I haven't written here in a long time. Too busy. This is hard so please bear with me. I am sorry if you are family and had to find out on here. It is hard for us to call people.
We found out yesterday morning that I was having a miscarriage and we had lost the baby. The I would have been 9 weeks and 4 days. The baby stopped developing around 6 weeks. Shad and I are devestated. We had know we were pregnant before we could even test to confirm. We were so excited. Last weekend I took out all my maternity clothes, and now I have to put them all away. I took my first baby bump picture the other day. Now I realize that when I took it my baby was no longer growing.
We were so in love. Picking out names and figuring out the new things we would have to buy. Now we have to figure out how to explain to our 3 year old that the baby in my tummy is gone.
We didn't know this baby for long but we were already so in love. It kills me that we won't meet this baby in this life.
Luckily I am not in tons of physical pain. We don't know why this happened. We just know that sometimes it happens and that it was nothing we did.
We needed people to know. I didn't want people to bring it up and feel bad when I had to tell them the baby was gone. But please don't feel like you have to never bring it up. As I post this please remember that we are still dealing with the loss and while I wasn't pregnant for long please keep your words kind because since we knew we were pregnant from the very begining I feel like I had been pregnant for much longer.
The best thing right now is to pray for us. For healing and that our hearts don't hurt so much.
